My Savior

He has carried me when I couldn't go a step further. I've felt His comfort, I've felt His presence. He has given me every blessing I have in my life! A thought came to me a while ago that Christ is the most perfect being to ever walk on earth, which means He could rebuke me because I'm not, but because He is perfect, He doesn't. If the gospel were personified, it would be Christ - He is the happiest, most kind, most loving person I have ever known, even though I can't remember Him completely.

He is real - I've felt His presence before. He brings the greatest peace in the world, a peace I long for and pine over every day - the same spirit I feel when I watch the Forgotten Carols, the feeling I had at the Oquirrh Mountain temple open house, the joy of Temple Square - He is familiar. He's come through for me every single time, and any success I've had is because of what He gave up for me. He lived for me, He died for me, and if I were the only one to be saved through the Atonement (thank Heavens it's not that way), He would still do it, because He loves me so so much - an unconditional love, so that even when I mess up or I'm slothful or a plethora of other mistakes I make every single day, He still loves me, and He loves me deeper because He knows exactly how it feels to go through what I have - because He has.

Sometimes I believe I'm going to have to plead my case when I get to the Judgment Bar, that I will have forgotten to repent for one thing that will keep me out of the celestial kingdom, but that's not how it's going to be. Because He went through my hardest times, He knows why I feel the way I do sometimes. He will be the One pleading my case and He will be worthy to plead it because He is without sin. He was not forced into the Atonement. He chose to use His agency to take upon Himself the sins of the world so we could live with our Father again. That is a love indescribable, impossible to even comprehend!

I hope when I see Him again I'll recognize Him and He will recognize me because His light will shine through my eyes and His countenance will show in my face. I hope when others see me, they will really see Him. When I see Him I'm sure I will just start sobbing because He loves me so much. I will do everything within my power to feel worthy to give Him a hug! He's my Big Brother, my Best Friend. I can't remember what He looks like, but I do know Who He is, because I see Him every day. I see Christ in you, my brothers and sisters; in your beauty of creativity, in your confidence, your kindness, your happiness. Anything that you let shine is a mirror of my Savior to me.

I think when he comes again He will be giving service. The other day I saw such an incredible sunset that thinking about it now takes my breath away. It could have been the Second Coming, I swear! Even just imagining that it could be got me so excited. I am obsessed with clouds. I read in the Bible Dictionary that Christ will come in a cloud which makes me think He took me aside before I came to earth and said something like "Now keep an eye on the clouds for Me; that's how I'm coming!"

Sometimes Christ seems far away to me, but He's closer than I realize, disguised as a friend giving me a hug when I need it most or my mum giving me comfort or even as a talking lion from the Chronicles of Narnia! The Atonement works before Judgment Day; it's an everyday thing. I still don't understand it completely, but my seminary teacher clarified it more for me - the Atonement is not the grief or the natural consequences we feel from sin, it is the peace we feel when Christ has changed us and smoothed out our rough edges. Any changes I've made in my life have come from Christ - through Him I can pray to my Father for help to cast off the natural man, and the help my Father sends is Christ.

I love my Savior so much. He has given me the opportunity for eternal life and repaid a debt I could never repay. I am forever in His debt, but instead of treating me like a servant, He sees the queen in me that I sometimes can't see in myself. He helps me see that I am a goddess-in-training! He is real. I have felt His presence before. He will come again. He is your best friend too, and if you don't know it, I challenge you to pray to feel His love for you. I promise that you will feel it. These things are true and I say them in the name of my Savior, my Big Brother, King of Kings, Prince of Peace, the Son of God, Jesus Christ. Amen.